childhood under microscope

Fighting with bro n complaining to mom..."Mom y r u giving every single new thing to bhai...why r u giving him a new towel, new hair oil , new tooth paste, new polish, y u keep all these things for me. Why don't u giv me separate soap case ?? why not separate hair oil for me??"
These were the words when I used to complain mom when brother used to do packing for his departure to hostel.Being the youngest daughter of my family..I was loved by every one. from the age of 6 years I had to have charm of going hostel and living life with all the stuff owned by u only unlike in family u have to share room n other things to siblings.
Mom used to say..enjoy ur life here with us baby...in outside word u ll become dis much alone u won't find anyone to share ur moments.U may judge ppl wrongly n then u ll hav to repent heavily.Now we are here to protect u from any bad happening bt once u enter into this outside world u shud b ur mom n dad..u shud hav to live life with full of responsibility.A child mind wasn't able to understand the complexities of outside world..i cud only see living life independently.

beta--jiaa..come here..i used to listen sometimes this corner of house n d next moment from some another corner..some times neighbors were calling my name..for teasing me ..or for some work..or for simple words asking my mom...it used to happen very normaly...
Now when that small droplet has come out in this world..n stay far away from her family....she rarely finds those words which was mixed up in sweetness...jiaa jiaa..whr r u..y do u not listen me....'''
Noone now calls from neighborhood.. no aunt comes to me n ask for any help ..none calls me with affection..no kidz come n ask for borrowing my bat or ball or badminton racket ...As I am completely unknown to the place and the people around.
I am completely a strange person in this strange world...I have to kick off one new life in this strange world..where none knows me..my family..or anything else. I have to win so many hearts from the beginning. I am ready for such challenges..but old memories keeps on echoing in silence..n calls my name very often.